Sunday, September 30, 2012

This Seasons Goals

1) make a film with Zandra

2) have an office for computer, desk, phone for  my film projects where I can concentrate write and work without interruptions

3) create a company that includes a busking license while I also maintain full time working at my jobs

4) travel back and forth to Canada

5) go to new Orleans

6) serve and love

7) relax and spend lots of time with my friends and family

8) work hard play hard

9) be kind to others

10) see lots of movies

Monday, September 17, 2012

More Around The Hood

 A bridge right beside our house over the highway has been torn down and rebuilt this summer beginning April 26. It seems to be almost finished. Often through the night we could hear and feel pile drivers and jack hammers as the crews worked at least 12 to 16 hours most days of the week.
On the way home from work a little pal has been foraging under the grass for bugs and worms. Yes, the picture is upside down but you can see who this is. Click to enlarge pic.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Superstar/Supermodel, R.I.P.

 Gender really doesn't have anything to do with love and who we love. I loved this man like a brother and as if I was in love with him.  He really is in so many ways a twin to me. I first really got to know Chris when he was a customer at Joy Bistro on Queen Street East and I was working there. He came in at least two or three times a week to eat breakfast and quite often a weekend brunch after the rush and before he went to work. We would chat and usually talk about whatever he was reading at the table. He  was working at Living Well on Yonge Street and always was thinking or doing something I was interested in. One day we sat and stared at the cover photo of Tommy Lee on Rolling Stone naked except for a very long tie...and we were hooked...with each other. I almost don't know anyone who had as many interests in common as me. We loved talking about astrology, movies, celebrities, metaphysics, philosophy, design, architecture, nature, life, and we both were nuts about clothes and home decor and second hand shoppng. He was a GOD at second hand shopping. He also loved all kinds of music...just like me. Not just punk or rock or pop but the whole history of music. We used to spend entire days with Much Music on watching videos and examining how they were made and drinking coffee ordering take out and seeing who would change the cat litter first.( I always did). Chris was one of the few people I hung out with in Toronto who was a little bit "west coast" and he was very involved with anything metaphysical and occult and spiritual.  I used to just melt into his big brown eyes and he approached every topic as if it was profound and fascinating. We were room mates too. We lived together at a sort of strange transitional lonely time for each of us. I was bartending down the street on the east end again and Chris would come and pick me up from work at least a couple nights a week after he finished his serving job in boys town. Next to my husband he's probably the closest I've ever been with a man and shared so much joy for life with...and you know Stagg kind of even looks like him. Stagg met him a few years ago when we were room mates and saw how he is was the sweetest person. He had much loss and grief in his short life but he lived a little like a dirty sexy handsome monk. He really loved people and he really loved to share and talk. He had a gift for giving full complete attention to people. He was stunningly beautiful to loo at and it was always a mystery to me why men weren't constantly fighting over him. He was aloof and connected. He was like a mystic and a sleek greyhound and a comic. God he was funny. You know that unusual smart, ironic, insightful and a little cutting sort of humour but he did it with love. we could giggle for hours. We blared our stereos. Eminem. Madonna. Christina. Mary J. We both had an annoying habit of playing a song we liked over and over and over and we usually wanted to hear the same song. Which is handy when you're roomies. I koved into his house which he had decorated with years of his collections. It was a stunning place with mid-century furniture, 12 foot high mirrors, silver lamps, wood, chrome, and painted warm rich colours. He was beyond hip he was so tuned into culture and style. He was the total epitome of urban. He seemed to own the city and make full use of all its facilities and places to hang out. The combination of a deep emotional man, spiritually open-minded and urban was irresisitable to me. Chris found his path and his gift and he was able to work at it in the last few years. He became a life coach...which was his calling. He's really one of the most fabulous wonderful people I've ever known and for a now-heartbreakingly short time we loved each other to bits I am happy to say. We loved each other in ways that hurt but also healed. I wish I could do it all over again wiser more loving and more fun. He was a living angel. His love for beauty in the world also manifested in his capacity for love, compassion and forgiveness. For Chris the beauty in the world was directly connected to the beauty in the heart. I am turning up the stereo for you Chris and I hope there are second hand stores in heaven, and St Peter at the pearly gates is gay and hot, and there are lots of pints of beer, and you can redecorate the joint.

Thursday, September 06, 2012


Robert Plutchik created a wheel of emotions in 1980 which consisted of 8 basic emotions and 8 advanced emotions each composed of 2 basic ones.

Robert Plutchik's psychoevolutionary theory of emotion is one of the most influential classification approaches for general emotional responses. He considered there to be eight primary emotions - angerfearsadnessdisgustsurpriseanticipationtrust, and joy. Plutchik proposed that these 'basic' emotions are biologically primitive and have evolved in order to increase the reproductive fitness of the animal. Plutchik argues for the primacy of these emotions by showing each to be the trigger of behaviour with high survival value, such as the way fear inspires the fight-or-flight response.
Plutchik's psychoevolutionary theory of basic emotions has ten postulates.
  1. The concept of emotion is applicable to all evolutionary levels and applies to all animals including humans.
  2. Emotions have an evolutionary history and have evolved various forms of expression in different species.
  3. Emotions served an adaptive role in helping organisms deal with key survival issues posed by the environment.
  4. Despite different forms of expression of emotions in different species, there are certain common elements, or prototype patterns, that can be identified.
  5. There is a small number of basic, primary, or prototype emotions.
  6. All other emotions are mixed or derivative states; that is, they occur as combinations, mixtures, or compounds of the primary emotions.
  7. Primary emotions are hypothetical constructs or idealized states whose properties and characteristics can only be inferred from various kinds of evidence.
  8. Primary emotions can be conceptualized in terms of pairs of polar opposites.
  9. All emotions vary in their degree of similarity to one another.
  10. Each emotion can exist in varying degrees of intensity or levels of arousal.

[edit]Plutchik's wheel of emotions

Robert Plutchik also created a wheel of emotions. This wheel is used to illustrate different emotions compelling and nuanced. Plutchik first proposed his cone-shaped model (3D) or the wheel model (2D) in 1980 to describe how emotions were related.
He suggested 8 primary bipolar emotions: joy versus sadness; anger versus fear; trust versus disgust; and surprise versus anticipation. Additionally, his circumplex model makes connections between the idea of an emotion circle and a color wheel. Like colors, primary emotions can be expressed at different intensities and can mix with one another to form different emotions.