Monday, August 03, 2015

My Head Is Exploding!

Here is the opening night schedule for the Cormac McCarthy Conference in Memphis this coming October...

Rick Wallach, Ringmaster
Steve Frye, President
Stacey Peebles, editor, The Cormac McCarthy Journal
(Welcome by any designated representative of the University of Memphis – to be determined)
7:30 – 9:15 PM – Opening Panel, “Fifty Years of Cormac McCarthy”
1. Fifty Years of McCarthy’s Writing in Blood. David Harris, Deakin University (Australia)
2. Is Cormac McCarthy a Nihilist? Shane Schimpf, editor, A Reader’s Guide to Blood Meridian
3. Cormac McCarthy’s Anti-Landscapes. Michael Madsen, University of Southern Denmark
4. A Palimpsestuous Relationship: Cormac McCarthy’s Western Fiction and the Screenplay. David Otto Fitzgerald, University of Sydney (Australia)
5. The Human Clock. Candy Minx, independent scholar.
9:30 till whenever: The Musical Cormackians jam session, Eugene Young, compere: commons area, Fogelman ballroom, 4th Floor.

Friday, July 24, 2015

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Thursday, July 23, 2015


Okay so...I have participated in god knows how many training workshops in my life. I just could not even begin to count. Workshops for cultural tolerance, workshops for women, workshops for recovery, workshops for wonder, workshops for marching in the streets, workshops for talking, workshops for non-threatening language, workshops for diversity, workshops for sensitivity, workshops for first aid...
I mean a lot of workshop. So last night I'm really looking forward to the training for civil disobedience. The facilitator ask, "Give us some suggestions on how we can do civil resistance". I put up my hand and say "we can choose where we spend our money" She says good. I put up my hand again "We can speak out when someone says something insensitive". She was "yes, thats good". No one is saying I put my hand up again "We can make moral decisions based on compassion". She writes down on the board..."speaking". She writes down on the board "boycotting"....and then she asks another question and finally some other people put up their hands. The first guy says "we can shame people" the next person says "we can destroy property"....and I She is writing on the board every poetic dirty bird-dogging thing people are saying . (I had to google "bird-dogging" and realized thats an adage for what Michael Moore did in ROGER AND ME) I had no idea that the game was so tight right now. I spoke to our facilitator a few times on my own during the training in the breaks. I was like, "You mean I can take a picture of you?" "you get PAID to do this training!!??" Last night I was putting my camera on the floor and taking picture of feet because I was so scared everyone would get arrested! LOL. I spent my whole life trying not to go to jail...and these folks are learning how to wear several layers of clothes (jail is cold) eat a lot of food the day before protest (one meal a day in jail) and to wear depends (long wait for bathroom break in jail) it was truly a humbling and disturbing experience. Everybody is gonna owe big time to these folks on the Karma Scale.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Ghost Hunter Party Girl, R.I.P.

For the last two nights I have come home looking to see if our apartment has been fucked with. Has anything been moved around or placed upside down> The world’s number one fan of the Afterlife has died. My mum spent her whole life reading and researching UFOs, reincarnation, accounts of life after death, Edgar Cayce, Alan Watts, spiritual healing, comparative religions essays, astrology, ESP, ghost stories and you name it. If it was alternative, or otherworld she was into it. She had an opinion or book to recommend. She was obsessed with horror movies and began initiating my sister and I into cemetery visits and scary movies as soon as she could. I have no idea how young we were….but I don’t remember any time with my mother where the conversation about death or immortality and the afterlife didn’t occur. I also don’t remember any weekend or time visiting her and we didn’t end up in bed watching some kind of paranormal documentary or slasher film. This woman loved a mystery. Maybe because she was a mystery. I’ve never seen anyone who could clean a house like she could. Obsessed with cleaning, decorating and hard-core order. In some ways she was like a mad magician. It would be no big deal to come home from school and find the house completely redecorated, restructured and painted.I remember as a teenager when it occurred to me that our house was a little different, because my friends would come over and be kind of blown away by how the house looked. Fur couches, orange walls, think oak round table, art, pillows, candles. And books. Books everywhere and giant home made stereo speakers. She was kind of ahead of her time for conservative Canada. She ran housekeeping like it was of massive military industrial complexity. I believe her need for order and beauty was because she was a chaos machine. She struggled with “cycling” of her thoughts, and childhood trauma she never resolved. Almost no one except my sister and I, and maybe one or two of her friends, even knew how she suffered and her struggle. She kept a tight grip on her appearances and her home and her jobs.To the world she was a work-a-colic, the-life-of-the-party and a high priestess of slapstick humour. I can’t tell you how many times I saw her fall off a dock, or a boat, or wipe out jumping a  fence (to chase our pet squirrel or raid an orchard) or almost pee herself laughing. She absolutely filled a room. There’s a good reason my sister and I are good listeners, and able to step back and let others be the center of action, like our kids, or friends. We grew up with a crazy, loud, manic star and we were both quiet shy kids in response. Halloween was the central driving holiday in our house. Who cares about Christmas when this horror superman was in full force? No room was left behind. Orange and black  and bats and candles and crepe and lanterns and pumpkins everywhere. I remember one time in Winnipeg, she had built a massive scene of hay stacks, and several paper pumpkins. she would annually build this tall human scaled creature holding brooms and weapons and with a paper pumpkin candle lit head. She made it every year and it was terrifying. We loved it! And one year it caught fire. Fuck, I’m telling you the mayhem that broke out pounding batting blankets snuffing, buckets of water throwing. My sister and I inside I don’t remember either awe or fear…just sitting there stunned. Later the laughing. Her and her mum just losing it and recounting the ordeal. We lived with our grandparents….and there would have been cocktails and great snacks and insane revelry about how silly my mum was and how we almost all died. And laughing, and re-eneacting every detail. I should slip in here...that mum was also a professional inappropriate laugher. Something in her contrasting of order and chaos seemed to manifest itself that she would laugh a the worst moments...often contagiously making anyone like my sister and I join her. We would drag out this Halloween story over the years and eventually I remember learning to see how funny it was…as a child I just snuffed out my emotions. Too scary. My father was furious. He also would recount the story but with a lot of blaming and disgust at how my mum almost killed us all. He was so mad decades later, two wives later, in the hospital in his last couple weeks of life he typed a message to me about “your damned mother” and her Halloween antics. Of course I laughed because how powerful my mother was to haunt my father like that so many years and so many miles away. He also would talk about how beautiful she was, how she had the tiniest waist. Yes, that’s right this intense force of nature was only 5’4” or something, with the tiniest of bone structures.  How could someone so small be so large.  And as she tormented dad, I understood because she was no easy person to spend time with if she was in a mood or you were trying to take up center stage. Her pain, her cycling, her anger were just as vibrant as her need for excitement and mystery. She was one of the most generous people in the world and also one of the cruelest I’ve known. She was a mystery. She also loved outdoors life and was fairly athletic in many ways at odds with her clumsiness. She loved camping and the woods and nature. I have such an overwhelming feeling of her being at peace at last. I also feel she might finally understand why reincarnation might exist. I hope the Afterlife is holding a  huge Halloween Pagan celebration for their number one investigator and fan. Meanwhile I’m making sure she hasn’t put salt in my sugar bowl, or lined our bed with cornflakes. I have  no doubt she is going to try to haunt my sister, me and my daughter, her favorite audience.

And here is what I wrote for my dad...

Sunday, June 21, 2015

The Pepper King

 We roperd Stagg into helping at one of my jobs this past week...he chopped peppers for 10 hours!!!