Saturday, August 10, 2019
CORMAC McCARTHY: “It’s so strange; I never knew what happened to him. I saw Richard Gere in New Orleans one time, and I said, ‘What ever happened to Terry Malick?’ And he said, ‘Everybody asks me that.’ He said, ‘I have no idea.’ But later on I met Terry. And he just… he just decided that he didn’t want to live that life. Or so he told me. He just didn’t want to live the life. It wasn’t that he didn’t like the films. It’s just, if you could do it without living in Hollywood.”
Sunday, August 04, 2019
In the above photo are two special t shirts. One from from his sports team. The other shirt is a classic Grateful Dead bear motif in an Escher style building/staircase. His work friends brought his surveying equipment.
He had taken up golf in the last few years. He played as a teen but had returned to take it up. His daughter began the celebration with many anecdotes and insights into his life. Then his brother spoke. They both made us feel joy with their stories. And they both portrayed his broad interests in life, beginning with a humble approach to his outstanding athletic abilities, to majoring in journalism in college, being a party animal, and reading one or two books a week his whole life, and his participation in an online forum about one of his favourite writers, Cormac McCarthy. Then a friend, Rick Wallach, got up and represented the outstanding contribution to Cormac McCarthy literary analysis by his participation on the McCarthy Siciety forum. Rick was able to frame Peters participation in such a way that friends and family could clearly understand.
Everyone wrote a love letter.
Thursday, August 01, 2019
Peter presenting in Memphis conference for Cormac McCarthy, 2015.
I would love to share a little bit of the kind of thing he would email me...we often spoke about what was happening online in the McCarthy forum. "Your assessments seem spot on. I operate from fear too much and should just let it all hang out more often. I can take criticism pretty well depending on how I'm spoken to. It's interesting how things go on the Internet compared to a face-to-face chat or what have you. One thing I'm sure about it that I've always admired how you can go toe to toe with anyone when things heat up, but I also appreciate and have certainly noticed your more diplomatic, gentle side. Good mix that."
He was so kind like that. We both shared an insecurity of sorts and fear of rejection. Our emails sometimes said how we would be so afraid of being rejected by someone at the McCarthy forum...and it was so cool to share that sort of fear with him. We had both encountered some rejection from some of the people there...in part, I think because we both would write so much...and be so obsessed. It was one of the things we had in common. In some ways he and I were very opposite sorts of people too. He so very often would read what someone said online, or in emails and say "good stuff." It was a classic thing he said. Often. And it felt so good when he would say it to me. He was terribly encouraging about things I was thinking about or exploring. And what I have come to learn this week is that is is YOU PETER WHO IS GOOD STUFF!!!!
I have been collecting footage of people I met online...and I have more of Peter, from Knoxville I think, but this short time clip is from Memphis. In Memphis I met Peter's wife for the first time and we really hit ift off. I am so sad for her....I feel sick about the whole thing and I am praying for her. I have also really enjoyed reading posts on Facebook by his friends and family. Everyone is shocked and so gutted. I feel so lost for words and just so sad.
It's so strange because in a way Facebook has the feeling of an afterlife. I have found out that Peter was a man of faith from a cousin of his. I was not really aware of that side of him...although I know he had a lot of inner strength from some of his life story. And he had gone to see ONCE UPON A TIME IN HOLLYWOOD the day before Stagg and I went. And when I saw the movie I couldn't wait to go to the McCarthy forum to see if anyone else had seen it. I have obsessed over what he wrote about the movie on Fb and re-read it several times. And now...his Facebook page has the sense of eternity as people are posting tributes on it. So profound.
And here is the last post he made on Fb on Saturday: